My grandma told me that sometimes we find
ourselves wanting to do so much that we end up doing nothing at all. We
have the burning desire to make something—anything—happen, but we don’t know
where to start. So, we start nowhere.
This is a horrible habit of mine. I have great
zeal when inspiration comes. I get excited about accomplishing certain goals or
milestones. However, I am often left with that zeal. For instance, I will tell
someone my plans for the day and all that I plan to do. I would have high
energy and motivation to get all the mentioned tasks done, but at the end of
the day, sometimes I will have accomplished one task. There have even been
instances where I wanted to socialize with friends. I would reunite with
someone that I hadn’t seen for years, give a suggestion that “we should hang
out,” and the opportunity presented itself in the form of an invite, I would
clam up and go back into my loner shell.
I wasn’t always a loner. I became one when I moved
to Buffalo, NY, for grad school. Because I moved to a place where no one really
knew my name, I was forced to sit back and observe the people before revealing
my social butterfly personality. I slowly made friends and was able to “be
myself,” but that took a while. Before then, I focused on being safe and going
to school. I didn’t know where anything was. I gained a closer relationship
with the Lord, nevertheless, but I learned to simply enjoy my own company. This
was different for me because I was very social in my hometown.
Be careful wanting to do something so badly that nothing
is produced. Be careful of wanting to write a book and not writing a book at
all. You will find yourself wasting years of productivity from desire. Desire doesn’t
get developed if there is no determination or effort behind it. Dreams die when
no life is given to them. Notice how I said given.
It takes effort to give anything.
At this point in my life, if there is anything that I
want, whether big or small, I act on it. Even if I make tiny efforts to get it
done, I do something. Right now, I want to write more, help others to get
published more, motivate people more, and eat healthier. I still love to eat
cookies and stuff my face with other sweets, but I make constant efforts to eat
more vegetables than meat. For some reason, I am intrigued by vegans and
vegetarians. They have such great energy. I’ve learned through research, observation,
and experience that too much meat in the diet can weigh a person down and cause
them to have low energy. So, I gave myself a goal of eating more vegetables,
especially raw ones, to consume all the nutrients.
Enough about food, keep in mind that what you do for the
Lord will last. There is no reason for you procrastinate on your life goals. If
there is anything that you want to fulfill, make it happen and don’t worry
about anything. The Lord created us to be fruitful in all our ways, not to be stagnant.
Out of zeal comes inspiration. Out of inspiration comes
development. Out of development comes action.
